TMI Tag!

TMI (Too Much Information) Tag!

Hey Guys!

So today I thought I'd do a tag and this is the first one that came to my mind! I would also want to quickly mention this: Gabby, otherwise know as Gabriella Lindley replied to my tweet.. AAAAHHH! Okay, I'll get started x

1. What are you wearing? - Gryffindor tracksuit bottoms and a Gryffindor hoodie, both from Primark!
2. Ever been in love?- Yes!
3. Ever had a terrible breakup? - Nope!
4. How tall are you? - I don't really know!
5. How much do you weigh? - That's only for me to know!
6. Any tattoos? - Nope!
7. Any piercings? - 1 in each ear!
8. OTP- One True Pairing? - Okay, here we go: Zalfie, Narcus, Janya, John Paul+ Ste from Hollyoaks, Maxine+ Dodger from Hollyoaks and loads more, I forgot them all!
9. Favourite show? - Hollyoaks and The Simpsons!
10. Favoutite band? - Don't have one!
11. Something you miss? - my family back in Lithuania, including my two other cats!
12. Favourite song? - At the moment it's: Human by Christina Perri!
13. How old are you? - I am 12 years old!
14. Zodiac sign? - I am Cancer and I was born on 16th July!
15. Quality you look for in a partner? -Truthful, hygienic and the usual! 
16. Favourite quote? - "Every time you post something on the internet you have a choice- you can either make someone happy or sad." Zoe Sugg, also featured in her book- Girl Online!
17. Favourite actor? - Don't have one!
18. Favourite colour? - Blue and Purple!
19. Loud music or soft? - depends on the mood I'm in!
20. Where do you go when you're sad? - The internet, mostly YouTube!
21. How long does it take you to shower? - around 15 to 20 minutes!
22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? - It depends what mood I'm in, if I'm sad and tired it'll take me up to 1 hours, however if I'm happy I'll do things quicker so 30 minutes!
23. Ever been in a physical fight? - Yes!
24. Turn on? - Personality!
25. Turn off? - Bad hygiene and rudeness; if a guy treats a girl like a pet it instantly puts me off!
26. The reason I joined YouTube? - Well I used to have a YouTube channel to meet new people and that, but because my videos were bad quality (in my opinion) I  made them private!
27. Fears? - any kind of bug (especially spiders) and death!
28. Last thing that made you cry? - I can't actually remember!
29. Last time you said you loved someone? - a few minutes ago I said I love my cat Millie!
30. Meaning behind your YouTube name? - At the moment I don't have a YouTube channel, however the meaning behind my name is this: Pastel colours are normally unnoticeable and very light, blinding colours are very noticeable and bold. So my Blinding_Pastel stands for showing your true colours and not being afraid of being yourself!
31. Last book you read? - The last book I read and finished is 'Girl Online' by Zoe Sugg, otherwise known as Zoella. The book I last read and still am is 'Love, Tanya' by Tanya Burr!
32. The book you're currently reading? - As I just mentioned above, it's 'Love, Tanya' by Tanya Burr!
33. The last show you watched? - The SacconeJolys!
34. Who's the last person you talked to? - My mum!
35. The relationship between you and the last person you texted? - That would be my best friend Bubbles! As I said we're best friends so that kind of explains it all? Haha, yeah!
36. Favourite food? - I like pizza, chocolate, salads, McDonald's and all those kind of things. I do have a balanced diet, which I'm happy with!
37. Place you want to visit? - EVERYWHERE!
38. Last place you were? - My kitchen. But the last place I was, out of the country must be Belgium when I went there over the last summer holidays!
39. Do you have a crush? - Nope!
40. Last time you kissed someone? - Does my cat count? Well if it does, then a few minutes ago and if not... It's been ages!
41. Last time you were insulted? - This morning, when I was in form, one of my class mates was handing out the dinner tickets and when it came to mine he deliberately pronounced my name wrong- 'Villy' by which he meant 'Willy'. I also just want to say my name is not any of the above :) !
42. Favourite flavour of sweet? - I like most sweets as long as they're not liquorish flavour.. I'd have to say my favourite are strawberry!
43. What instruments do you play? - I used to play the piano and the flute, however I moved away and my personal teacher is no longer able to assist me. in learning.
44. Favourite piece of jewelry? - I don't really have a favourite at the moment, but it used to be a black choker necklace with a 'Ying-Yang' sign on it!
45. Last sport you played? - This was ages ago, before the half-term holidays, I played badminton, although biking does count as a sport and I did that last week!
46. Last song you sang? - I can't really remember, but I think I hummed along to the Hollyoaks theme tune.. An actual song is probably 'Blank Space' by Taylor Swift!
47. Favourite chat up line? - 'Are you Google? 'Cause you have everything I'm looking for' or 'Have you just sat in a pile of sugar? 'Cause you have a sweet ass' !
48. Have you ever used it? - Me and Bubbles always joke about them it, but I've never used it seriously!
49. Last time you hung out with someone? - Not counting my mum and my cat, me and Bubbles spent the whole day together at school!
50. Who should answer these questions next? - Anyone that wants to! Although I do nominate Bubbles to do them on her Blog Page and if you want to check that out, here it is: http://girlinherdreams.blogspot.co.uk/

So that is it for my TMI Tag! I hope you enjoyed this and it helped you to get to know me even better! Byeeeeeee x

Blinding_Pastel x

Review Tuesday!

Review Tuesday!

Hollyoaks!

Hey Guys!

Today I thought I'd start another series kind of thing and from now on at least every other Tuesday I will review a T.V show or a make up brand, etc. and let you guys know what I think of it! My February favourites is also coming up very soon, so keep and eye out for that! I've really been living the T.V show 'Hollyoaks' and while many people hate it, I, myself adore it! There's always something breath-taking going on and even if you think it's very predictable.. Trust me, at times it is quite hard to guess which starts a really good conversation between you and your friends about each others opinions. In this Blog Post I will not give away any spoilers, just in case you want to find out for your selves. If you live in the UK tune into Channel 4 at 6:30pm on workdays only, grab some snacks and enjoy Hollyoaks!

I haven't been watching Hollyoaks forever, and belive it or not I used to hate everything about it! I've been watching the show for over 4 months now and I think it's got a brilliant story line, great actors and characters and of course you can't leave out their accents! I love that there is more than one thing going on at a time and all the characters are very bold and each of them stands out! There isn't anything I don't really like about it so I don't have much to say in that section! Me and Bubbles both love the show and fit in a Hollyoaks discussion everyday! I live the show and really do recommend it, it's also straight after Simpsons- they're two if my favourite shows!

Hope you enjoyed reading this and suggest other things you would want me to review next!

Blinding_Pastel x

A Photographer in the Dark. 7.

Chapter 7.

My New Family.

I open my eyes to find myself in a pitch black room, I can hear some one breathing, just can't make out who. I go over the past events and remember that I'm at Sonny's house and its actually... I turn my head in every direction to look for a clock, however after a minute or two I just predict the time. ..it's around 4am! I woke up because a vile, horrible dream keeps haunting me- the same one all the time. I brush off the sweat off of my extremely embarrassingly large forehead and lay back down. I turn to my right and stare at Sonny for a bit; he looks so peaceful- I find it fascinating how someone can be that relaxed in their sleep! Every muscle of mine is tensed, ready for something sudden to happen: my life is a roller-coaster which no one is in control of!

A familiar sound of a boiling kettle and a microwave wake me up- this time into a light, cozy room. I stretch and go to check the time, but I remember that I didn't spot a clock at night.. This room needs some essential accessories! The right part of the bed is empty, Sonny is probably at school now.. The thought of going back to school never really leaves my mind, I'm frightened of the attention I'm going to receive after being off for over a month, but being in Year 10 is a big responsibility, so I need to revise for my GCSEs next year! I also miss science and my science teacher, Mr Johnson- my decision about opening up to him is getting stronger by minutes.. Can I not like Mr Johnson anymore? I guess I'm not really 'with' Sonny but we slept in the same bed and he cares for me from the bottom of his heart! Pushing the thought yo the back of my mind I get out of bed, but soon fall to the floor out of lack of sleep. Crawling over the wardrobe I pick out an outfit in my head and lazily retrieve it from my side of the wardrobe, then get dressed. Looking in the mirror is the hardest thing for a human being who has really shallow self confidence and thinks that self-image is the number one thing society notices about you! It is very true, in this day and age being pretty and confident is the key to friends and partners at love. I look down at my arms; the cuts are fading, however they're turning into permanent scars, scars that make me who I am today. I quickly put my hair into a messy bun and use millions of hair clips to secure it; Sonny shouldn't care how my hair looks right? The kettle starts boiling again- this time my name is shouted:
"Amber!" a sweet female voice says up the stairs.
I head down for breakfast and to meet the rest of Sonny's family, afteral yesterday was a shock-day to me.
"Hi, nice to meet you sweet heart! My name's Louise but you can refer to me as Lou if you like. Make your self at home, afteral Sonny expects you to be living with him for quite some time!" A woman greets me as I walk into the kitchen, she's not particularly tall but has big, brown eyes and a warm smile. I love living here already! I answer her and introduce myself, describing my personality and thanking Lou for having me. She tells me her husband, Sonny's father is still at work so there's only us in the house at the moment. I grab my self a ceramic bowl from the top cupboard and reach for the cereal and a heavy jug of milk. There's a beautifully designed clock in the kitchen which shows 2:54pm - Sonny should be coming back from school in less than half an hour, wow! I woke up late?!

It's now 3:39pm - way past the usual time for Sonny to come back home.. I start worrying, however reassuring my-self did help. Everything bad that could have possibly happen to Sonny run through my head as I picture shocking images no one should ever imagine! I decide to text the number that was left on the bed-side table..

                  07853301046

   Hey, it's Amber and I was just wondering when you'd   be coming home from school,it's Friday afteral! x

Louise and I are sat watching a Christmas film when her phone goes off- it's an unknown number.. We both look rather concerned as she answers:
"Hello? WHAT?!" Louise's' face turns from concerned to frightened, very frightened indeed..

Blinding_Pastel x

A Photographer in the Dark. 6.

Chapter 6.

The Journey Towards Light.

Muffled sounds start to wake me up from my deep sleep, and as I open my eyes I see the door handle turning- frightened, I shut my eyes once more and pretend to be asleep. Quiet footsteps are nearing me, and before you know it I hear a soft, male voice:

"I know you're awake Amber, I won't hurt you"

I instantly open my eyes out of curiosity and see a handsome boy looking over me. Wanting to get to know him I sit up and allow space for a second person to take a seat on the bed.

"Wh- Who are you?" 

"I'm Sonny Edwards, 15, enjoy sport, an animal lover, love cuddles, movies and popcorn. And before you ask, I did not kidnap you and have no intention to do that. " his voice 'flows' and is a lovely melody to listen to, but I can't let myself fall in love with a guy I just met!

"Nice to meet you and all but how exactly did I get here? The last thing I remember is having a panic attack caused by a dream" I cringe as memories flood back, trying to control them is so hard! 

"Yeah.. well I see you every morning when you walk to school and I know where you live- I walk past your house to my school.. Yesterday I was walking home from my Thursday job and I heard deafening screaming coming from your house, I hid around the corner and waited for something to happen.A few minutes later I saw you parents carrying you outside, I thought it was so you could breath some fresh air, but they just left you on the cold doorstop..I then took you home and hear you are now" Sonny finishes it with a comforting smile.

"Thank you so much! That was very kind of you, but I better head home now, my parents might be worried" that's such a lie! They'll be glad, I know that for sure.

"Well about that.. My parents have already had a conversation with yours- you are welcome to stay here.. That's why your suitcases are just behind me!"

"Oh, are you sure? I mean you seem nice and that but I've only just met you.." I'm kind of shocked, I mean for someone to like me, and help out through the worst stage of my life, yet is so unusual!

"Yeah, I'm sure- well I've gotta run now- school but I have left a piece of paper with my number in it, just there" he points at the bedside table where I see noting but a glass of water..Underneath which, a piece of paper."..So you can text me anytime during the day.. Bye" Sonny says, walks out the room and I'm left to wonder. The image of him is still stuck in my head; beautiful brown eyes hiding underneath an orange hood.. Most importantly his voice and the way he looked at me- as if he's never seen a girl so beautiful. That's a shame- I'm not beautiful, not with the cuts on my arm that get deeper by day, not with the irritating, metal braces fixed on my teeth. 

6 hours later I hear familiar footsteps coming up the stairs, a quick check in the mirror won't hurt- I glance at myself just in time before the door opens and Sonny appears in the room. We exchange smiles for a second, but I couldn't hold myself back from suggesting to do something about the state of his room:

"Hey Sonny, I was wondering if you wouldn't mind cleaning this room? I'll obviously help! It's just that if we're both going to live in here we'll need more space.." after saying that I feel anxious and uncomfortable- afteral this isn't my room to boss around in!

"You know what? You're way more persuasive than my mother! Yeah I think we'll have to bring in the second bed, join them up- both of us won't fit in that!" he grins at me. "I'll go get it from the spare room and you can start helping in the room? Thanks, you're amazing!" Sonny walks out the room and I start with the world's messiest wardrobe ever.

"Well that went well, didn't it Amber?" we're now finished with the room- it looks so much different; way more airy and plenty of free space!

"Sir, yes Sir!" I reply jokingly and fall onto the massive bed we have constructed- it smells of roses and lavender, two of my favourite flowers. I check my phone for any texts from my parents, you never know they might have the decency to apologize for their acts.. No, nothing from them, but then again- I have Sonny and that's all I want! It feels like I'm heading towards light at the end of the tunnel!

Blinding_Pastel x

Photographer in the Dark. 5.

Chapter 5.

Entering a Nightmare.

I open my MacBook to check if I've really deactivated my 'Meet Me' account- sometimes I just dream of it.. Yes, yes I have as whenever I click the link it tells me I'm blocked from the website for personal reasons of Amber Carter who is me. Feeling safe, I reassure myself that my life life is getting better and I dive under my doughy duvet shutting my eyes- setting foot into the darkness. I have a mighty, perplexing feeling that tonight's dream is going to be a good one!

*I stretch my feet across the leather sofa.. Ahh, now that my hateful family are gone, I can come out of my shit room and feel like a human being again! To be honest, I don't really  mind my room that much; afteral I spent half of my life there! Right, time to watch 'I'm a Celebrity' on Catch-up 4oD and eat some lunch.. Today I'll have some Frosties Cereal! The doorbell rings as soon as I open the fridge..Creepy? I stroll down the long hallway and peek through the miniature window at the top of the grand door and see a middle-aged man dressed as a usual postman- he probably brought some gas bills and taxes for my parents so I open the door and greet him with a rather fake smile. Unexpectedly he enters my house and tours around the kitchen, as if I'm not even there, as if I'm a ghost.

"Excuse me? This is my house- you must have confused it for your own..I recommend, you step outside? Yeah, that's be splendid!" I say without utterly running it through my head.

The man doesn't reply, instead he wonders over to me, slams the door and leads me to the living room, where he pushes me onto the leather sofa. Thoughts are racing through me head; what is he doing to me? What am I going to do? Frozen to the spot, I stare at him- he stares back. Wait! That's the one in the burgundy coat on the park bench..This is not a coincidence! All of a sudden he unbuttons his red jacket, navy blue shirt..I shut my eyes, however the sound of a belt forces me to peel my eyes open only to see his face centimeters away from mine, only to feel his breath on my face- weed and coke. My arms and legs are widely spread apart so the old git slipped down my pajama bottoms and..* 

"AAAAAAHHH" I scream as loud as my lungs allow me, my pajamas are soaked from sweat, slowly everything around me blurs into one as my eyes are no longer mine- everything's a black hole and there's no one to pull me out, no one to say:

"Everything will be okay"

I am alone. 

The same ol' feeling runs through my body- I'm in a hospital.. AGAIN! I open my eyes, this time without hesitation to find myself in a dark, gloomy room. On the walls I see posters of many famous football players, many basketball trophies glisten on the shelves, dotted around the room. I happen to be on the bed, staring around..Is this my brother's room? Looks familiar..No, this ain't the smell of sweaty socks or the gone-off cheese! I'm not n my house, however I feel weirdly secure and safe at this place, so it's surely not the man's hiding spot- if it was, the smell of weed would penetrate my body straight away.

Blinding_Pastel x 

Things That Annoy Me - Text.

Punctuation, Grammar 

and 

Spelling!

Hey Guys!

So I was reading a couple of stories and Blog Posts today which made me realize how much spelling, grammar and punctuation errors really annoy me! So what better thing to do than carry on my 'Things That Annoy Me' series and rage about them on here? I also just want say: I am using examples from Bubbles' book and blog because there's quite a few mistakes in there but in no way am I trying to offend her. Also I'm not saying my writing is perfect but, I think I  don't have as many mistakes as other pieces of writing. Soo.. let's get started!

I'm starting of with..Hmm, I'll call it the 'Lost Comma'. This is where people miss out the most obvious commas which then leads the sentence to make no actual sense at all! It usually happens at the end of a sentence.. Example:

"What! Who?" I ask slightly concerned okay alot concerned.  

Oh my God. Okay we';; start off with "I ask.." there should be a comma there because in real life you would pause there and that's one of the properties of a comma- it adds a pause. I realize you're typing the story and you're all 'In The Game' but bro, at least say it out loud to make sure your sentence makes sense! Do you not read it back and spot it? It's quite obvious! Another one is "..concerned okay.." and the second comma goes after "okay" because you're pointing out HOW concerned you actually are! And really, I'm not trying to be mean to my best friend in any way, shape or form, but please, please use the needed punctuation where it's needed because that is one of the reasons you've stayed in the same English set for two years! Also, using the same example, I just want to point out the "What!". And yes, I know perfectly well what your intention was, but hey! in your context, 'what' is a DAMN QUESTION! So.. A question, has a question mark at the frickin' end of it! This in my opinion is the correct version:

"What?! Who?" I ask, slightly concerned.. okay, alot concerned!" 

I mean, do you not cringe if a sentence is not correct? I surely do! 

The next one.. I don't really know what category it goes into, but here it is: when people do not use a new line for a new speech! Listen, we've been taught that in middle school!

Another thing to do with text is this:

Friend- "You use long words..I should use long words, maybe I'll sound smarter.."

Well, sorry to inform you about this, but using long words won't make you sound smarter when your texts are:

Text from a friend: "hey r u in school" 

How annoying?! Number one, it's a question- there should be a question mark at the end! Use your spelling and punctuation- they're free and don't make you sound like a school drop-out!

Are you ever reading something and then you stumble across this sort of thing:
Story: "..I brush my teeth until they look better then before.."
It's THAN! I mean, do you not annoy yourself? The meaning of 'Than' -  Used to draw a comparison between two or more items. The usage of 'Than' - It's a conjunction which simply means it brings two ideas together, for a higher level writing. Examples of the usage of 'Than' - I ate more than he did. His smile was different than she remembered. The meaning of 'Then' - Used in relation to time and the order in which events occur. The usage of 'Than' - an adverb, adjective, or a noun. Examples of 'Then' - She ended the call, then packed her bags. "Until then," she said.

The last thing I'm going to mention is the use of 'OF'

Story: "He must of been born like it.." 

No! He MUST HAVE..  `I can't really explain how much this annoys me! so I'm going to leave it here!

Sorry this was short, but if I talked about all the text errors that annoy me I'd be typing for hours! Again, I don't mean to offend anyone- take it easy and laugh along!

Blinding_Pastel x

Pamper Evening Essentials!

Pamper Evening Essentials!

Hey Guys!

This month, I've really been getting into blogging so as you've noticed I post way more often now- for example: twice a day! Starting next week I'll try have a more scheduled posts; such as 'Shopping Saturdays' or 'Scrumptious Sundays' or the other way round. That obviously means that I won't be posting twice a day and probably not everyday, because the half-term holidays are ending in 1 week!

Right, now that that's clear let's get started with the Pamper Evening Essentials x

All of my Pamper Evening Essentials!

Hair Care:

So I'll start off with my hair products! I included two shampoos because I sometimes switch between them. The brand is 'L'OREAL ELVIVE' and the blue one is 'Thickening Shampoo' and the pink is 'Shine Shampoo'. I never really find that 'thickening' or 'shine' shampoos work but I can see a real difference since using these. They haven't got a strong smell to them, which I love as I apply hair oil and de-tangle spray and I want those smells to stand out over the shampoo. 

'L'OREAL ELVIVE' Shampoos- SuperDrug

 While my hair is still damp after washing I like to apply this hair oil which you apply onto the hair- not the roots and it makes your hair appear shinier and thicker. It is especially good if you've dyed your hair!

'L'OREAL ELVIVE' Hair Oil- Asda

Shower:

Before i get into the shower I like to apply this cranberry body scrub all over my body to exfoliate and just make my skin feel softer. It smells amazing and I love that it washes off really effortlessly! Once I wash the body scrub off I use my 'Johnson's Pineapple Shower Gel' and then the pink soap which my mum got me from the 'Java Store' in Norwich! I'm going there myself to pick out some more amazing soaps as this one is better than any 'Lush' product- that's a big statement! It smells like strawberries and watermelons mixed into one- it's such a fresh scent and it leaves my body very soft and fresh!

Body Scrub- Poundland.

'Johnson's Shower Gel'- Savers.
Body Soap- The Java Store.

Body:

When I get out the shower I like to put on some body lotion if I feel like it. This one is a pure coconut one and it smells literally like heaven! I mostly apply this on my legs and feet because that's where I mostly need it! For my hands I use the 'Possibility Raspberry Pavlova' which also smells like heaven! It's a very fruity smell and I think goes really well with the coconut lotion. It moisturizes my hands and I find myself re-applying this at least 3 times a day!

Body Lotion- Savers

Moisturizing Hand Cream-Savers  

Face:

For my face I use this set from the brand 'Editor's Choice'. They all have the same scent which to me smells like herbs and spices- a very cozy smell! The product in the green tube is the face scrub which I apply right after my body scrub and then wash them both off in the shower. This leaves my skin really soft and ready for the text product: Face Mask! This is the one in purple and I have to say it hard to apply when you've never practiced with it! The first time I used it I didn't cover my whole face so had to peel tiny bits off at a time. So stupid of me! It's a very easy face mask to apply once you get the hang of it and I would get more but they do not sell this set anymore :( ! The last face related product that I love using is the 'Editor's Choice' face moisturizer in the small pink tube. You really don't need lots of it- a pea amount is plenty for your whole face! I was very surprised when I used it as it's very rich and softens your face with the smallest amount!

Face Set- Savers.

Also before I do anything with my face I like to wash it with warm water and not use make-up wipes all the time (I'll do a whole Blog Post about it)! If I do however, have any make-up on I will use the purple facial wipes to remove my make-up but then I will rinse my face off with warm water. If on that day I am not wearing any make-up but I want to freshen up my face a little I'll use the green packaged make-up wipes and exfoliate my face, then rinse with warm water. These make-up wipes are my favourite because they leave my face feeling fresh and they last a while- I use them rarely and one wipe is plenty for one go!

Make-Up Wipes- Poundland.

Outfit:

Once I'm out of the shower I put some pajamas on and for my recent pamper evening I chose this onesie- it is soooo soft and really cozy! This was also one of my Christmas Presents!

Onesie-Matalan.

Once I'm done with the beauty products I get myself a healthy, but yummy snack and get into bed. I obviously don't go to sleep- I eat my snack and either read Love,Tanya -Tanya Burr or watch some of my favourite YouTubers! This time I chose a mini fruit salad and a banana milkshake for my snack!

Banana Milkshake- any
 supermarket.

Fruit Salad- Fruit from
any supermarket.

Other:

I watch my YouTube and type my blog on my laptop and that's a 'Must-Have' on pamper evenings! I also love to read !girlinherdreams! blog and book so go check it out: http://girlinherdreams.blogspot.co.uk/

 I also like to light some candles to make my room smell delicious and make it seem so much cozier! These candles are my top two! The big jar  is the 'Love Heart' candle in the scent strawberry which is my favourite!! No other candle can out-grow that! I looked in stores and they don't have any big versions left so I'm going to have to supply myself with the smaller versions! The second one is vanilla and it's such a strong, sweet scent that definitely fills my whole room with the smell (but my room is literally tiny!!) ! The quote on it says:

Candle

of

Faith

Worry ends

where faith

begins.

And I think that is so sweet!

Candle of Faith: Card Factory.
Love Heart- The works.

The candles along with another one
from yesterday's Haul.

When I'm finally tired I'll go wash my dishes and brush my teeth with this 'Colgate Whitening' toothpaste. I rinse my teeth with the 'Aquafresh Extra Care' mouth wash and then get back into bed and go to sleep.. Haha. No, I go on my phone and watch YouTube videos for at least another hour!

Toothpaste+Mouthwash- Wilkinson's.

Hope you enjoyed this and don't hesitate to comment below if you'd like me to do a 'Get Ready with Me' and such!

Blinding_Pastel x

Scrumptious Sunday!

Home-Made Apple Pie!

Hey Guys!

So today I decided to share one of my all time favourite recipes with you guys! I would've included pictures, however that means I would have to make it which let's face it- is a time consuming activity even though this is one of the quickest ones! Let's get started x

Ingredients:

• 3 eggs
• 200g of granulated sugar
• 125g of sifted white flour
• Cinnamon
• 5-10 apples 

Method:

• Wash and peel your apples.
• Then cop them into thin quarters and add to a large bowl. 
• Add a tsp of cinnamon for flavour (if your apples are sour add a tsp of sugar too!) and gently mix together.
• Put that aside.
• Then, in a separate bowl add the 3 eggs along with 200g of granulated sugar and use an electric mixer/ 'Kitchen Aid' to mix together. 
• Prepare your oven pan with butter and dried bread crumbles to form a secure base for your pie.
• Add your apple mixture to the pan and layer your dough on top, making sure you cover all the gaps.
• Place your pan into the oven on 220'C for around 50 minutes.
• Keep checking with a little skewer and if you take it out of your pie without any dough on it your pie is ready to come out!
• Serve alone or with some whipped cream and fresh berries! Volia!

As you can see, this is a really easy recipe and would only take up 1 hour and half from your day ?(maximum). I hope you enjoyed this and comment down below if you want a series of 'Scrumptious Sunday)! Post your pictures of the apple pie and tell me how it turned out! If you need to convert any units I've used to others, here's the link:
http://www.circlecity.co.uk/kitchen/conversions/gasmark_temperatures.php

Blinding_Pastel x

Things That Annoy Me!

Annoying Things People Do..

Hey Guys!

So today I thought I'd post another Blog Post in which I'm going to be ranting in/ listing things that annoy me. as you can tell by the title! Please don't get offended in any way and if you think I've missed anything out comment down below letting me know what annoys you the most. Enjoy x

So I'm going to start of with the word 'Cool' and the letter 'K'. First of all, typing 'K' when texting is basically killing the whole conversation! I mean it literally seems like you don't want to talk to someone and you think they're an absolute idiot. And please don't say "You know I don't mean that" because that annoys me even more! It's the same with 'Cool' but personally I think it sounds way worse it person:

"Now I've just got to buy some milk and then I can finally finish my cake recipe!"

"Cool"

And that's the moment where I want to slap you and tell you to f*ck off! Leading on from that.. Do you ever have a normal conversation and then you mention something that happened 3 weeks ago and then your friend goes:

"Yeah.. When you did that I wanted to call you a f*cking bi*ch and slap you round the face but, as you're my friend I would never do that to you."

Well listen here love, I want to slap you round the face a lot of times but I hold it back because if I say a good comeback then you get all upset and moody when you're the one starting it! Also it's funny how you think that only you can talk about what annoys you but when I say the smallest thing (that ain't even half of it) you frickin' start your period!

Classrooms: were you ever in a situation where you're in a lesson and your friend mentions something that annoys you so you tell them about it and then they get really moody and kinda self-centered? Yeah, and once they've realized it was unreasonable for them to get all stroppy they ask you:

"Are you ok?"-Them

"Yes, I'm doing my work" -You 

"K then, I was only asking" -Them

OH MY GOD! I was only replying and doing my work which you're supposed to do in a lesson! How annoying can you get?! So then obviously you'll look frustrated and your facial expressions+ tone of voice will show that, right? Your friend will then ask you if you're okay non-stop and when you say yes bout 50 times your tone of voice will change again and then their response is:

"Chill out!"

Hey! Don't mean to be rude or anything but YOU'RE the one that needs a little chilling out. 'K' ?

The last thing I'm going to talk about is when your friend says something along the lines of this:

"I love your pony tail today! Mines higher though, haha!"

That annoys the c*ap out of me! I mean to be really honest I think your hair looks terrible today but for some reason I don't comment on that. In my opinion that makes you sound so self-centered, stuck-up and bitchy!

That was only a few things that annoy me, hope you enjoy and please son't get offended x

Blinding_Pastel x

Photographer in the Dark- Blurb.

Photographer in the Dark.

A touching story about a 14 year old Amber who suffers from severe anxiety and depression. Signing up to a dating website has really helped her mood as being the 'new kid' in the Northampton High School isn't easy. She falls in love within seconds but is it all real? Is it a hack, an attempted murder? A threat?

Join Amber on her journey through like and becoming a healthy adult. It might be harder that it seems.

Includes bad language.

Older readers only.

Blinding_Pastel x

P.S- probably should have done this before writing the book but non of my covers were made so sorry for the confusion x. Check out my Wattpad to read it in a different format: Blinding_Pastel 

Byeee x

A Photographer in the Dark. 4.

Back To School.. 

Approaching your date must be the hardest, especially when you've never met them. I walk to the far bench of the 'Tudor Park' as Thomas instructed me a few days ago on the dating website. He mentioned something about a maroon  coat with a pair of skinny jeans, I keep an eye out for that just in case he hasn't made it to the bench in time. The closer I get the more visible the figure sitting on the bench gets, I see a big, cosy maroon coat and 'Acid Washed' skinny jeans. Unconsciously I speed up, and everything that happened before that hospital trip soared out of my innocent mind. With an increasing spark of excitement I hurry to the bench.
"Hi, are you Thomas Belton? I'm Amber Carter and you told me to meet you here so I came.." wow! I said that without awkwardly stuttering at all!
"I don't know who you're on about, but I'm surely not a Thomas" a middle-aged man turns around, looking like he's been up all night, texting some teenage girls.. But, hey! That can't be true- he's probably got a wife, kids, grandchildren..
"Oh..Urm sorry I must've confused you for someone else..Sorry" I can feel my face filling with embarrassment as it gets flaming hot. I don't wait for a reply and rush off back to where I came from. Not only I am embarrassed, no. I'm scared because I surely did not confuse that man with someone else, however why would a 50 year old man sign up to a dating website and pretend to be someone else? Why target me? The thought doesn't leave my mind all the way home, with my hands stuffed into my antique coat's pockets I make my way home as quick as possible- it's already 3pm and I've only got an hour until it gets dark! That's one of the many reasons I hate the Autumn months.

Recalling yesterday's events still scares me, although I am curious and perplexed.. Who is he? I decide to deactivate my account on the website and carry on with my life as if nothing happened. I get up off of my bed to go check my calender and my school timetable- if I'm correct today is a Sunday which means waking up at 6am tomorrow for the dull school of mine. My timetable shows me that I have double science periods one and two..Oh no! My science assignment is still not complete! I quickly grab my back-pack and pull out my science folder; and it's in my bag for once! I stayed up last night cleaning again and I have to say I'm loving my room clean.. I've progressed to the point where all of my clean clothes are in my closet and the dirty ones downstairs in the washing basket, my school stuff is on a separate shelf or in my school bag. Phew! That was a lot of work, I feel like I burned a million calories just putting my clothes away! Anyway, my assignment is to complete a GCSE paper on the Periodic Table which we are actually getting marked for. Well as I'm in the top set, we get pushed really hard and I find it quiet easy to be completely honest. As I mentioned before, I love my science teacher and I think I'm one of his favorites too; Mr Johnson asked if I wanted to come after school to revise for the End of Unit Test and when I asked who else is coming he said:
"It's only you, I mean look at them 'chicks' all into makeup and everything- they don't give a damn about learning!" which I completely agree with. My first revision session is tomorrow after school and I am really looking forward to that! The thought of telling Sir about my personal life has crossed my mind a few times and if it goes well, that's the route I'm going down.

Blinding_Pastel x

Self-Image.

Self-Image.

Hey Guys!

So today I want to talk about a more serious subject because I want to show some support to the people that need it. Here it goes:

I have a friend that said this to me: 

"When I look in the mirror I see a monster staring back at me.." & "I don't eat because I'm scared of becoming obese.." & "I'm fat and ugly.."

I'm not going to be a hypocrite by saying that I don't deny it because I do say:

"No you're not!" 

However, the more I hear it from her the more sad I get; you see it's not just the thought, not just their mind telling them that- it's society. If you're not rich enough, skinny enough, pretty enough you do not get excepted into a friendship group. The thought of young teenagers who've got their whole life ahead of them cutting and committing suicide over self-image terrifies me. I cannot imagine life without my friend and she cuts. This week she's been cheerless and the only emotions are annoyance and pain. She says:

"I don't like putting my problems on someone else, please worry about yourself"

I don't think many people see the power within those words and how much hatred you have to get to say them and be confident about them. She's saying "forget about me and pay attention to yourself because one day you're not gonna want to see yourself.." and that's powerful.

So if you do see a monster looking back at you in the mirror just know this: you will beat it. You and me and everyone else will fight it and it's going to fade away- a beautiful Princess or Prince Charming are going to look back at you and say "Well Done". We can overcome our greatest fears by fighting together, so comment your fears down below, let them free.

Also, if you're that friend of mine that I talked about: I love you to bits if I loose you I won't survive.

Blinding_Pastel x

A Photographer in the Dark. 3.

Chapter 3.

Love Makes You Distant..

I wake up to the loud sizzling sound of bacon and eggs; my dad's Saturday Breakfast and I'm not gonna lie it's really appetizing! Each morning I go through the previous days events and today is no exception. As I lay in bed, reflecting on yesterday I suddenly remember that today is the day; I'm meeting Thomas Belton at my local, ancient theme park. My current mood is not the ' I don't give a fuck' it's more of a ' I'll put a little more effort into my first date' kinda thing. Unhurriedly I clamber of of my bed and land on my Mount Clothes that is gradually getting smaller- only because yesterday I stayed up 'till 3am  cleaning my disastrous bedroom. My original idea was to wear the cleanest pair of jeans I could find and a hoodie, however I'm feeling like a short sleeved top would do just fine. I cross the bridge of books to my vanity and pop on some mascara I got for Christmas last year and my favourite matte lip gloss, check it in the mirror and notice bottomless cuts on the inside of my left arm. 

*How could you be so stupid Amber? Going on a date right after that? Idiot!* The cuts are from me self-harming. I couldn't help but cut after I escaped from the hospital. It all just got too much for me and a 14 year old teenage girl couldn't hold the keys away.

*Well you're wearing a hoodie then..If you can find one!*  

I take over 15 minutes searching for a semi-clean hoodie and then finally I discover one right behind my bed, I think it fell behind there over 3 years ago. That chapter of my life was happy; my family loved me and I still had a best friend and a healthy mind. Poison is trapped within it now, cutting is and addiction- it's a key to controlling my pain and holding back the unneeded tears soaking my cheeks with the flaming acids.. Right, I grab my favourite hair brush and run it through my thick, autumn colored hair- that's the only part of me that I like- my hair. Once I'm done I step out of my room to find a pair of shoes already at my door with a small note inside one of them. The note says:

    " To Amber,

Go to the shop to get some milk plz becoze i want my cofy this morning and u know i luv milk wiv it.

From: jason."

Ugh. My brother Jason, only 2 years younger than me and yet is hideous at spelling! I carelessly throw the note over the dark oak wood banister and run down the stairs, straight out the door into the cooling Autumn breeze. I head straight to the theme park which is luckily only 25 minutes away from my house is I walk at a constant speed.

As I walk down my road many elder people casually walking past give an ol' smile but I rudely ignore- right now all I can think is Thomas and I think I might just be falling for him. As I come to a halt at the crossing I become aware of my thoughts and how distant I actually am from the world.

Blinding_Pastel x

Wattpad- A Quick Update!

A Quick Update!

Hey Guys! 

How are you all? Yeah I'm fine thanks and I hope you're doing okay too:') ! Right now I'm in bed, with my light switched off and its 23:22pm/11:22pm. I thought I might as well update you guys before watching some of my favorite YouTubers and going to sleep! So first of all I want to say that I've really been getting back into blogging recently and I'll be sure to include that in my 'February Favorites' coming at the start of March ( or whatever month comes after February as I can never remember my months). Also if you've read my previous 3 posts you will know that I'm writing a book called 'A Photographer in the Dark' on Wattpad and my Blog Page. If you'd like to check out the story on Wattpad then my username is: Blinding_Pastel. As I write the last sentence an idea popped into my head; the next blog post should really be a blurb on 'Photograher in the Dark' ! So comment down bellow if you would like me to do that and I'll make sure to do it. Hmm.. I literally forgot what I was about to say.. Well you know my best friend !girlinherdreams! Otherwise known as Bubbles? She's also writing a thriling book at the moment called 'Blogger' which nearly made me cry as it's a really touching novel. Phew! I think that's it? Oh, no! Me and Bubbles had a double sleepover which was really fun and full of luaghs. On Friday I slept round Bubble's house and we persuaded her mum to try Bean Boozeled and she got the dog food flavour! Then on Saturday we slept round mine and rolled under my bed trying to fish out my cat form the back. According to  my mum it sounded very wrong as we couldn't stop laughing. That was an eventful weekend then! Obviously I only pointed out the highlights of our sleepovers but belive me, there was so much more! Okay I'm now done rambling so you can finally go and entertain youself x

Blinding_Pastel x

A Photographer in the Dark. 2.

Chapter 2.

The Online World.

I can't bare to open my eyes. I'm a waste of space on this World so why would the World want me to look at it? It would burn form the deformed eyes of mine! Instead, I decide to feel around me- I'm good at guessing so my hopes are to find out where I am as my bedroom smells nothing like this and my parents wouldn't want to put me anywhere on their newly bough, expensive furniture. I take my first guess- the hospital. There was no need to examine any further. One footstep after another, someone is walking towards me.

"Ah, hello Mrs. Carter! I'm Dr. Khan." a deep, manly, clear voice rings in my ears as I lay there still, not daring to move.

"Hi, nice to meet you." I hear my mother stand up. Ugh she's putting on her 'public speaking' voice! "I've been ever so worried about Amber, she's only 14 and stuff like this is already happening.." haha. Yeah right, she's been worried! That is the funniest lie I've heard in a week. I twitch my nose and suddenly feel as if a whole stadium is gazing at me from above.

*Too late now Amber! Gonna have to open your eyes* I think to myself and before you know it the lights of the hospital ceiling are blinding me. Usually - in movies you see teenage girls being happy about waking up because they've got a whole life ahead of them and their faultless boyfriend is already standing there with a gorgeous bouquet of roses. No, not me. I was dreading it.I stare at the doctor, not facing any of my so-called family. He glances at me and as if reading my mind he caries on talking to my mother just like nothing happened.

"You see, your daughter.." at that point I get the filthiest look form my mother before she carries on listening and nodding to Dr. Khan. "..suffers from depression and relentless anxiety. Now before you ask for the cure.. I'm afraid there isn't one. The stage your daughter's at is 5 which sadly isn't curable. Amber will stay with this diagnosis for 'till her death bed although it may get better at some points in life." he finishes with a deep sigh- I can understand him. 

"Oh right.. Do you think I could have a little chat with you in your office?" now my mother actually sounds concerned about my health or anything to do with me.

It's a couple weeks later now, and I'm back home. Sat on my bed again making yet another plan for the big clean- my room has gotten so disordered in the past few months that it's a real hassle finding a sock. I hadn't had a panic attack since 2 weeks ago when I was rushed into hospital which is always a relief!  I also went back to school 3 days ago as I missed about three and a half weeks. My current favourite lesson is science. The teacher I have is called Neil Johnson  and I have to admit he's not that bad:'). The only other entertainment was signing up to a new dating website called 'Meet Me' and I'm already talking to a few boys that seem really interested in me. The only reason I did it was to get my mind of my panic attacks and anxiety and obviously my obnoxious family! There's this boy Thomas Belton that seems like a really pleasant guy started talking to me yesterday- already asked me on a date. I walk over a bridge of books piled on top of each other to my calender.. 26th..26th.. Ah! Here it is, my date is tomo- it's tomorrow!! Oh I don't have nothing to wear but I guess after the hospital I'm always in a 'I don't give a fuck' mood so might as well wear skinny jeans and a hoodie. 

*Funny one Amber! In order to find jeans and a hoodie you have to clean your bloody room! Never know, might find an Iphone 6 down here* I stutter under my breath and start cleaning..

Blinding_Pastel x

A Photographer in the Dark. 1.

Chapter 1.

Liam Davies.

As I click "Log On" excitement rushes down my neck; Liam Davies might be online! While my Facebook page loads I let myself have another moment for a perfect daydream. I imagine a tall, brown haired boy standing in front of me. His emerald green eyes meet mine and before you know it he's holding my waist, going in for a passionate ki-

"Amber! Dinner's ready!"

OUCH! Oh my God, it's the fourth time I've done this! Falling off of my bed right before the kiss.

"I'm not hungry" I shout back as if everything was fine and quickly get  my Science assignment from under neath the bed, find a pen at the bottom of my giant mountain of clothes and close my MacBook. Knowing my mother she will be coming up here in exactly 4..3..2..1..

"Everything OK?" Hazel Carter, my mum is in my room! I put a sign on my door saying "DO NOT ENTER OR ELSE" but no one ever listens to me. "How many times do I have to tell you to tidy your room? Family's coming over tomorrow!"

"Oh sorry, you see I didn't know that gatherings were held in my room." I reply sarcastically without turning round, wishing she would go and I could finally talk to Liam.

"So disrespectful! Look at your brother: well behaved and polite. What happened to you?" my mother says as she storms out of my room. FINALLY! Pushing my assignment off my bed I  instantly reach for my laptop. Scroll down my friend list to find that Liam Davies was online 7 minutes ago. You have to be kidding me right? 7 minutes ago I was logging onto Facebook! Stupid mother, all her fault!!

Ugh.Waking up in the morning is the worst! I grab my phone and scroll through my YouTube subscriptions, checking if 'Forever Loving' has uploaded a video. Unfortunately there is no recent updates from her channel which instantly puts a frown on my face. Since I moved to Northampton it feels like I've lost a part of me; Brooklyn and I were inseparable and now I feel shy typing "Hi", starting a conversation with an absolute stranger. Or should I say- just a favourite YouTuber? Yes, sounds more like it now. Right.
"Stop sulking" I mutter to myself, dreading getting out of my warm bed."5 more minutes should be okay really".
To the left I see my MacBook and then I remember how I fell off of my bed over Liam Davies last night. The same exiting feeling rushes down my body as I open up my Facebook feed.
"OH NO!" What has just happened? Ashley Hudson posted a photo of me- it's a very inappropriate one but I didn't take it! It's an edit I swear!! I keep scrolling down, pinching myself and trying to come back to reality. How? Why? Who? Liam Davies.. Davies..
"He commented!!" I exclaim.
"Amber? Is that you shouting? Your brother is asleep!"
"Dad, it was a video, sorry I'll turn it down" I don't know what I'm saying. A video? What video? I'm an idiot. All I care about now is that comment that I have yet to view. Okay. I'll be brave enough to view it and maybe he stuck up for me, you never know. I click 'Comment' and close my eyes in agony. Opening them slowly I stare at it. My eyes are burning from the light but I can't get myself to move- I'm paralised. "Dirty slag, what does she think of her self?"
Oh my God.  My life turned from fairytale into hell in a second. How am I supposed yo go to school? Especially when I'm the 'new kid'! I shiver- it's nothing to do with excitement this time. No. Fear penetrates my body as I struggle to breath. Everything is fading away.. Falling, falling, fal-
"Amber!"
"Wake up! We haven't got time to waste on you!"
"Amber I have to ho to my football class! I swear if you're doing this on purpose.."
I feel sweat dripping down my face- I can't tell my family, no! Never in a lifetime. If they really cared then I would be understood, then maybe I wouldn't be a waste of space and their time?

Blinding_Pastel x

My New Book!

Writing a Book?

Hey Guys!

I'm guessing you're all wondering what the title is all about? Basically I started writing a book chapter and I really loved the way it turned out so I thought I'd share it with you guys. My book is called 'A Photographer in the Dark' and it's all about a girl called Amber who suffers from sever deppresion and wants to end her life. Her family thinks she's a waste of space and like to remind her of that every once in a while. I'm not going to give much away so there's a point to reading it x

This post was more of an explanation to the next post! Hope you enjoy reading it x

Blinding_Pastel x

Can you Out Grow Your Ex-Friend?

Out Growing Your Friends.

Hey Guys!

And no, before you start asking me and Bubbles have not fallen out and hopefully never will! And I also want to make this clear: I do not regret losing that ex 'friend' of mine as she was an absolute bi*ch and still is.

So I guess it's quite simple; I've finally got rid of her as me and Bubbles are not allowed to talk to her at school or anywhere else. What angers me the most though is that it all got blamed on US and we're classed as some kind of bullies. That's a bit pathetic, right? Yeah! The wort is having a person you hate think that you're dying to talk to them, like no. 

I won't go into much detail because I'm currently writing this from my phone which is highly un-comfterble! If you want to hear the full story, make sure to leave a comment below so I'll know to post that next.

Sorry this was short, but I wanted to share this with a community that really understands me!

Blinding_Pastel x